Now she tours universities, giving talks about her past career in lesbian porn, and explains how she reconciles her old life with her newfound love for the Lord. We caught up with her after a recent lecture to ask her some one-on-one questions.
VICE: How did you get into the porn industry?
Teresa Scott: I was 17 when I started modeling with an agency in London, and they shipped me out to America as soon as possible. You start doing topless modeling, which is nerve-wracking at first. Once that’s normal, you start doing nude, then you start kissing girls, then you start touching girls. You don't really see the transition; it just creeps up on you. I worked at Television X. I'd be walking around their office nude, and all the other girls would be nude. I didn’t feel shocked, as it wasn't on my radar any more. When that becomes normal, the next step doesn’t seem so major. But all of a sudden I was doing full sex videos with girls. It’s only when you’re doing a three-girl shoot, and you’re all linked together, that you think, How did I get from being shy to taking my top off, to this?
What pushed you to make this transition to porn?
Constant offers of money. At first I said no. I remember being really nervous the first time a male photographer asked me to take my top off. I ran home scared and didn't do the shoot. I met my husband while working at Television X. He didn't mind my work. To be honest, we just saw dollar signs. We thought we could deal with it all and just earn a lot of money, thinking, Who cares?
What kind of porn did you do?
My porn was with girls—lesbian sex. I never did stuff with men. Actually, I did, but only once, with my husband, and that did feel strange. No little girl wants to be a porn star. No little girl grows up saying, "I want to be used in that way." Girls are enticed by the modeling side of it. I don't know one porn star who isn't a model. The whole "I'm-going-to-be-in-a-magazine" and "I’m-going-to-be-made-to-look-pretty" side of it is enticing, but it’s all rubbish and complete fakery. It’s understandable that some people go into this industry, because God put in women a desire to be desired, but that has been warped in this world. Desire is meant to come from a husband, but the sanctity of marriage has broken down in society. If we had still had that, the fix that girls need would be taken care of.
When did you find Jesus?
My husband and I were sitting in our computer room at home, where we’d been uploading videos to the internet. Then something weird started happening to us. We were transported to this most amazing place, where there were green fields and hills everywhere. We could see colors—they were breathing and pulsating in brightness and radiance. I could see a man in white, but I knew he wasn’t Jesus, and I knew he was talking to people because he was on the summit of a hill, so we were moving to this man. There’s a huge hill behind him, and he invites us in. The hill opens up, and we fall into complete blackness.
And then what happened?
The moment I came up, I was face to face with Jesus. He had fire in his eyes that burnt straight through my soul. But it was a fire of love, of burning love, not of condemnation. It was made known to me that I was the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end. I am forever and I have always been. And Jesus has always been with me. [Teresa starts crying.]
And what was the message?
The message was that he wants me to tell people that you are not condemned, that no matter how bad you think you have lived your life, he is able to take you out of it and lead you into better things. My eyes were fixed on his. His words came into me.
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someday you gonna get caught and people will be interviewing you on instead haha. ccb
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